Holding Hands....

makemedifferent @ 2004-08-12T19:53:00

2004-08-13T00:10:57Z

If I were a month, I'd be: September or May

If I were a day of the week, I'd be: Saturdayr Friday

If I were a time of day, I'd be: 9:00 PM

If I were a planet, I'd be : Venis

If I were a sea animal, I'd be: Dolphin or Seahorse

If I were a direction, I'd be: Left

If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be: Futon lol I just like the name :)

If I were a sin, I'd be: Kissing *Hee hee*

If I were a historical figure, I'd be: Cleapatra I guess?

If I were a liquid, I'd be: Watter

If I were a tree, I'd be: Weeping Willow

If I were a accessory, I'd be: Neckless or a ring :)

If I were a bird, I'd be: Humming bird

If I were a tool, I'd be: Does an Axe count as a tool?

If I were a flower/plant, I'd be: White rose

If I were a kind of weather, I'd be: Thunder storm....Ya know with the rain and thunder and lightning...yeah

If I were a mythical creature, I'd be: Mermaid or a Farie

If I were an animal, I'd be: Spider

If I were a color, I'd be: Black or Purple

If I were an emotion, I'd be: Love or Lonlynes...two oppisites I know but still

If I were a vegetable, I'd be: Is a pickle a vegtable?

If I were a sound, I'd be: Pop! Or Smooch...Ya know like the kissing sound.

If I were an element, I'd be: I dont know what an element is

If I were a car, I'd be: Jeep

If I were a song, I'd be: So cold I guess? Or Everybodys Fool. Humm or any song that makes me think about Rob.

If I were a movie, I'd be: Spider Man or 50 First Dates or Dirty Danceing or What A Girl Wants? Or Harry Potter? Or some other movie???

If I were a book, I'd be: HARRY POTTER!!!

If I were a food, I'd be: Hummm I dont know? I guess an ornge? I do not know

If I were a place, I'd be: Beach

If I were a material, I'd be: Arg I dont know?

If I were a taste, I'd be: Sweet?? I dont know that eather?

If I were a scent, I'd be: Rob

If I were a word, I'd be: Love Star or Rob

If I were an object, I'd be: A picture...or me and Rob

If I were a body part, I'd be: Eyes or Hand

If I were a facial expression, I'd be: Confused lol or Sad or the way I look at Rob

If I were a subject in school, I'd be: Dance or English

If I were a shape, I'd be a: Star or Heart

If I were a number, I'd be: 8

makemedifferent @ 2004-08-12T19:37:00

2004-08-12T23:47:59Z

Today was ok I guess? The bus was boring...I wrote Rob a note in this note book my mom gave me and said we could write notes back and forth in there if he wanted. I dont know if he will want to or not cause people did that stuff in the 8th grade and he may think its weird? Well I stayed with Rob in the morning and we huged...Mrs.Ramsbotham came up and said that that wasnt alowed. That is fucked up! I hate the new rules! I mean it is a public high school what do they espect? If they want rules like that than they need to go and teach at a privet school. Well any ways...He gave me his ROTC picture and I acsadently messed the edge of it up...I felt really bad. Well then I went to Dance and me and Sabrina talked about Blake. Yesterday on the bus blake said it made him sad how she was scared to kiss him at school and I told him I would talk to her. I did and I think I got through to her....she was less nervous I think. Well then we went to the assembly. I sat with Rob and Jessie. It was really boring I hated it. Well Then we went to brake it was ok. I didnt do much. Then me and Rob went to PE. We had to run and I walked the whole time with Jenny....Rob kept telling me to run but I didnt want to. Then I went to English I didnt do anything in there. Then I went to lunch. Richard was in there and he told me that he had been watching me during lunch. He used to be ok now he is just being creepy. Well Then I went to meet Rob and we just went to our 4th period. In choras Megan and Loryn told me Rob wasnt a virgin but I really dont think I should belive them. They tell me alot of messed up crap! Well then I went homw and Rob called me....YAY! Oh yeah I think I for got to put me and robs pet names in here so I shall do that now. Rob is Sugar Bumpkin and I am Sweetie Pafoodle. Rob is also Doctor Evil and I am Mini-Me. I <3 him. Well yeah...thats all. LatterZ

makemedifferent @ 2004-08-10T17:19:00

2004-08-10T21:36:15Z

Well finaly my computer is fixed. I have alot to write about....I think? Its probably stuff no one will want to read. I dont rember when exactly my computer broke down and exactly what I havent written about yet but im just going to write what I reamber. Well I talked to Ben and told him I didnt like him and all that good stuff and he didnt talke it the way I thought he would. He didnt seem to understand what I was saying but he hasnt called me since so mabye he got it. I think he only liked me cause he though I was pretty and someone told him I had a crush on him? Any ways about three or four days ago my mom took me and Rob to the movies...Our first date YES!!! Then we went to get icecream. After that we went back to his house....it was FUN dude. Well yesterday was the first day of school it was bad....I didnt get to spend any time with Rob and when I was with him I was being an ass and talking to Sabrinas boyfriend. We have alot of stupid new rulles about PDA and crap. AGR UGH! Today was the secound day of school it was better than yesterday but still bad. Well im talking to Rob so im going to go LatterZ!

makemedifferent @ 2004-08-08T14:28:00

2004-08-08T18:26:42Z

I SHOULD be getting my computer fixed soon...IF my mom or brother will call the computer place!! Well thats all LatterZ.....I MISS EVERYBODY! :(

makemedifferent @ 2004-08-04T13:31:00

2004-08-04T17:31:18Z

Well I am haveing to write this from my grandmas house but my computer is down so I wont be commenting or updateing for a while. Please noone cut me unless I say Im not getting my computer fixed.

makemedifferent @ 2004-08-02T15:28:00

2004-08-02T19:31:15Z

Well I think I already wrote for most of yesterday but something did happen that night. Me and my mom get into a fight. first it was just because I asked her for a cell phone. Then she was telling me how I always turn everything around to be her falt and she cant talk to me cause I always snap at her. And then she said she lets me do to much stuff and I never let her tell me no. Then she calmed down and said that she trust me to make good deshions...wich made me feel bad cause I dont. And then I told her the whole Ben and Rob story and she was kinda mad about that. She said alot of things about me that were true but I hate admiting it. She was saying about how I dont talk to her any more and I told her I try but its not like she cares are is paying any attion. She said I was right about that and she would try to do better. Im still not going to talk to her though cause I know when I get my self into a mess and I know when I do something wrong...I get enough guilt and stress from myself with out her putting more on me. She thinks I dont know what im doing.....I know what im doing I just dont do the right thing alot of times. Earlyer that day Rob called me and told me he told Murphy something and I was really mad about that but I didnt get to talk to Rob about it cause he had to go and he promised he would call me back. He didnt call me back and I tried to call Sabrina to talk but she was already in bed. I was up cring till 3 maybe latter thinking about my mom, why Rob didnt call me, Why he would tell Murphy what he did, How most of the time I dont have my friends when I need them, and about the Rob and Ben thing. I had planed not to take Robs calls cause im sick of him never being able to talk to me but I love him so I never can get mad at him so I called him this morning and we talked for a little while the secound time he called, the first time I hung up on him cause he didnt even mintion not calling me so I though he just forgot. We mostly talked about why he didnt call and of corse he had a good reason that made me feel stupid for even being sad in the first place. He had to go cause his dad needed the phone. I got on the computer and talked to Ashton mostly about whats been going on and I asked if Robs parents were nice to her when she called Brittany and she said yeah...That makes me sad cause they snap at me. Then I talked to Kaylin about lotz of stuff. I feel really stupid now! The phone rang and it said privet number and i thought it was Rob but it was Richard....Oh well sux for me. Well thats all LatterZ

Sorry if all I do is compline. If anyone has a problem with it ill try to work on that.

makemedifferent @ 2004-08-01T14:01:00

2004-08-01T18:05:29Z

Yesterday I went to the party at my church. It was not that fun. I had some friends there but it really wasnt much of a party. after that I had to go with my mom and brother to payless and the game shop it was really boring! After that my mom took me to the mall and left. Me and Ben just walked around and talked. He took me to this store I NEVER would have gone in. It was a store were this guy sold his art. It was beautiful lol. The pantings looked real because they were glowing like there was really light comeing from the picture. He made me tell him something I really didnt want to tell him but....I told him unfortionately for me. Well my mom came to get me and we went home. Rob called me that night and we talked...I <3 him lol. Well today I went to church and helped Megan with the power point in the little kids church. After that we went and talked to Olivea Sean Ben and more people I dont rember. Then we went and did the power poing againg for secound serivs. Then me and Ben helped my mom put these desks in her car...Then I went home. My mom said Ben was verry polite. I asked her if she liked Rob and she said yes the only way She wouldnt like him was if we did anything "together". I dont get why grown ups tell teenagers not to do something when they cant do it them selfs most times! ARG. I called Sabrina and she said Blake was still being an ass. When they talk on the phone he asks to get off to work on his dirt bike!...ASS!! Well thats all so far. LatterZ

makemedifferent @ 2004-07-31T09:41:00

2004-07-31T13:41:49Z

Well the day befor yesterday Sabrina spent the night. Rob was suposed to call me that night but he didnt that made me sad becuse I wanted to talk to him. He said he didnt even have a reason. I went to get my scedual with Sabrina I have one class with her dance 2 I think Kayin or Ashton is in there too. My classes for first semester are Dance2 PE English2 Choras...I have Pe the same time as Rob but a different teacher. Secound semester I have Tech-math Bio Civics Theatre1. I have Tec-math and Bio with Rob! Well after I did that I had to go babysit. It was ok more bad than good. There was three kids but 2 of them were really mean....to each other and me. It was verry exausting. When I got home Rob called and we talked for little while but there is so much I want to talk to him about that I dont get to. Today I am going to the church party and the mall...I know I will not have fun cause I am exausted!! Well i guess thats all LatterZ

makemedifferent @ 2004-07-29T14:56:00

2004-07-29T18:57:53Z

This is my first entry in my new journal here it goes. Yesterday I got up and took a shower. Rob called me and we talked for a little while. Amy from the dance team at church called me to FINALY! I was so happy! She said to bring 2 dollars to church for Glorys pizza party on saturday and dance practis starts september 11. When my mom came home we went to church. When I got there I said hey to Sean but it was just in passing cause he had his violine with him. Anthony showed me his gutar he just got it repainted blue glittery. Thats not as gay as it sounds it looked awesome! went to drama and at first it was just me and Olivea but then more people came. On the way out Micheal came up behind me and pinched my side! He was doing that to everyone to see how manny people would jump lol. He did that to me alot that day...Ugh. I think I jumped every time. Well then me and Ben were talking. He invited me to go to the mall with him on friday or saturday. I dont think my mom will let me go she thinks im a whore. Well when he had to go I found Amy and payed her the 2 dollars for Glorys pizza party wich is saturday at 12pm. Micheals going to be on the dance team too. Well I talked to Mandy also. She said she got my message I sent her and to try to call her again sometime. I told her I like to write poetery and she said I should join the news letter team and put some of my stuff in there. She said I need to let her read some of it. I really havent written any in a long time. I ripped up all my old stuff cause they were basicly poetic suiside letters. I sat with Megan during church. After church I got Bens number to call and tell him if I could go or not. When we all got in the car we went to the groshery store. When I got home Rob called me and I told him about the whole Ben thing, I love him so much.....I know I say that all the time but oh well. He was ok about it and he said I could like him but if I fell in love with him we would have to brake up. I dont see how it took it so well? I guess cause he really does love me? I mean I love him to but if he told me that about another girl I would feel verry insicure and I dont think I could still be with him I dont know. I would try to stay with him but it would be hard. He told me that he had a feeling we were ment to be and if I love him as much as he loves me we will always work out our problems. When the phone died I had to talk on speaker phone and Rob told my mom I love your daughtor and she said yall need to slow it down shes only 15. UGH I wanted to just tell her I love him more than I love her and she doesent think any one is in love but her and her preasus Ronie and to shut the fuck up!!! She talkes about Ronie all the freaking time! I hate it! When I try to talk to her about anything she acts like shes not interested! I dont know why she even pretends to care what I do. I mean if she actualy cared thats one thing but I can tell she only is so strict on me because she still wants to feel like shes incharge.! Well yeah Rob said he would try to take his grandmas car and come over but he didnt. I understand that though....it is alot to ask that he sneek out steel a car with out a licens and come see me lol. Well I think thats all that happened. LatterZ

I know noone wants to hear this but it is really good news for me...

I STARTED MY PERIOD!!! lol sorry everyone for that little bit of personal info.....Call me Lindy we need to plan my period party.

Oh yeah my shopping has been put off till next weeked because there is no sails tax.

I just notised how bad my spelling is.....sorry lol