This is my first entry in my new journal here it goes. Yesterday I got up and took a shower. Rob called me and we talked for a little while. Amy from the dance team at church called me to FINALY! I was so happy! She said to bring 2 dollars to church for Glorys pizza party on saturday and dance practis starts september 11. When my mom came home we went to church. When I got there I said hey to Sean but it was just in passing cause he had his violine with him. Anthony showed me his gutar he just got it repainted blue glittery. Thats not as gay as it sounds it looked awesome! went to drama and at first it was just me and Olivea but then more people came. On the way out Micheal came up behind me and pinched my side! He was doing that to everyone to see how manny people would jump lol. He did that to me alot that day...Ugh. I think I jumped every time. Well then me and Ben were talking. He invited me to go to the mall with him on friday or saturday. I dont think my mom will let me go she thinks im a whore. Well when he had to go I found Amy and payed her the 2 dollars for Glorys pizza party wich is saturday at 12pm. Micheals going to be on the dance team too. Well I talked to Mandy also. She said she got my message I sent her and to try to call her again sometime. I told her I like to write poetery and she said I should join the news letter team and put some of my stuff in there. She said I need to let her read some of it. I really havent written any in a long time. I ripped up all my old stuff cause they were basicly poetic suiside letters. I sat with Megan during church. After church I got Bens number to call and tell him if I could go or not. When we all got in the car we went to the groshery store. When I got home Rob called me and I told him about the whole Ben thing, I love him so much.....I know I say that all the time but oh well. He was ok about it and he said I could like him but if I fell in love with him we would have to brake up. I dont see how it took it so well? I guess cause he really does love me? I mean I love him to but if he told me that about another girl I would feel verry insicure and I dont think I could still be with him I dont know. I would try to stay with him but it would be hard. He told me that he had a feeling we were ment to be and if I love him as much as he loves me we will always work out our problems. When the phone died I had to talk on speaker phone and Rob told my mom I love your daughtor and she said yall need to slow it down shes only 15. UGH I wanted to just tell her I love him more than I love her and she doesent think any one is in love but her and her preasus Ronie and to shut the fuck up!!! She talkes about Ronie all the freaking time! I hate it! When I try to talk to her about anything she acts like shes not interested! I dont know why she even pretends to care what I do. I mean if she actualy cared thats one thing but I can tell she only is so strict on me because she still wants to feel like shes incharge.! Well yeah Rob said he would try to take his grandmas car and come over but he didnt. I understand that though....it is alot to ask that he sneek out steel a car with out a licens and come see me lol. Well I think thats all that happened. LatterZ

I know noone wants to hear this but it is really good news for me...

I STARTED MY PERIOD!!!    lol sorry everyone for that little bit of personal info.....Call me Lindy we need to plan my period party.

Oh yeah my shopping has been put off till next weeked because there is no sails tax.

I just notised how bad my spelling is.....sorry lol